Self love is very important. Please start doing it if you haven't started it yet. As this world is full of lunatics who are eager and waiting for the opportunity to pull you down. So show some love. Trust me you deserve it. i feel horrified just by imaging not be able to give that love back. people will pour mud each day, they will tell toxic things to you, if you are not gonna give your heart the water of love, how would you want it to blossom. Give your self a fair chance. Believe in yourself so strongly that no one can move your confidence ever to torment it. Think mindfully not to think about their thinking.